Winter Hibernation

I struggle with winter.

Too much time thinking, not enough time doing.

Winter is a hard time for all photographers in Southland.

We are blessed with the sunsets,

but 6 degree's makes motivation hard for all involved party's.

And it isn’t a matter of grabbing the camera and going for me any more.

I have lights, and battery’s to charge.

I have reflectors, and I need someone to hold them.

That is who I am.

I am the complete unit, if it can be done, I will do it.

I have to be better than that cellphone in your pocket.

No compromises.

Then there is the temperature.

I had someone say recently 'lets do this'.  

And my reply was that it will be cold.

They told me to wear a jacket.

Well its not me I am worried about.

It is the client/model/free spirited soul in front of the camera.

I know once I start, I will want to keep going.

It is all about the shot.

I forget about the person, I only see the light.

The results are worth it.

But it also carry's a guilt.

A guilt of lack of empathy, I don’t ever want to feel that I am making someone to do something they are not comfortable with.

And in winter, well it is cold.

The effort, set-up and time on my part, I don’t want people to feel obliged to be cold.

It can wait until warmer weather.

This year is different….

I have invested heavily in studio gear. I can play with light inside.

It is a simple set up, but it completes an illusion of global ability.

It can be about repetition, tweaking elements until the vision is realised.

And the results speak for themselves.

Sometimes I need a little help from photoshop.  But that is part of the excitement.

I know for damn sure next time I will get it right in the camera.

It has been lately it has been much of a one trick pony.

Lots of tweaking, adding and subtracting.

But it doesnt have to be.

The options are endless. So many concepts in my head all arguing to get out.

Winter hibernation is always an interesting time for me with my thoughts.

This year I expect many positive things.

Did I mention it is freaking cold?

(Oh yeah.  I am in the running to have my images exhibited in a gallery in New York.) 

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