A step-sideways, not back

This particular shoot could be considered a failure.

The vision was not realised.

No great leap forward was achieved.

The lights took a hammering, fried a modelling bulb (no biggy), and the most recent mod to the smoke machine didn’t work.

I was beating by space. I was too ambitious and did not have enough space.

Thats OK, simplify, regroup and prepare for the time when that compromise isn’t an issue.

And I think that is why I am being so hard on myself. Compromise.

Commercial stuff always involves compromise.

Time, location, light. You make the best with what you have.

Muster every iota of your environment, experience and equipment to push those boundary's.

But still there are compromises.

I can control the light, push the boundary’s of time and envisage the location.

But I am not in 100% control.

That is where creative shoots are different. I am 100% in control.

That is why I am so hard on myself when I do not achieve my goals.

I have no other factor to blame but myself.

And I guess that is where I am different to the majority.

I could tell you how amazing it is, how everything is perfect just the way I want it.

But....

You have your own eyes, you can make your own judgement, and............

I am honest to myself.

I do not say it is amazing, if it is not up to my standards.

I do not try to convince the viewer that it is something it is not.

I do not bullshit.

I see so much bullshit in the photographic industry. And I do not like it.

It saddens my heart. I see it in the same manor as a used car salesperson.

They point out the good, the average is down played, the bad is ignored.

It brings me back to the bullshit analogy.

They treat potential clients like mushrooms.

“Kept in the dark and fed on bullsh*t"

 That is not me, I am not a sales person.

If there is a better deal, I will tell you.

If someone can do a better job, I will tell you.

If someone meets my standards, I will tell you that too.

And I sometimes even include myself on that list.

But, at the end of the day, when I look around..................

Scribe said it best,  “Not many, if any”

 (Now I cant get that damn song out of my head lol)